25/11/16

i wish i was small

small enough to swim in a cup of my favourite tea

small enough to live under my own bed

small enough to hide in your arms


i wish i was as small as the flowers you adore

but right now i am huge and i'm no rose but i've got thorns

i wish i was as small as the pills you take

but right now i am huge and i make you sad instead of happy


i wish i was small.


i'm not good with responsibility

and being big means you've got to pay attention

be careful where you step

or where you sleep

or where you sit

or where you cry

so you don't hurt anybody


and i'm drowning in my favourite tea

just so i don't have to speak

and i'm hiding under my own bed

just so i don't have to move

and i'm avoiding you

because in your arms i'm big

and i'm really, really not good with consequences